A different kind of day today. Earlier in the afternoon, I decided I was going to write two essays. I’d read more from the book I mentioned yesterday and I’d been reminded of some things I needed to write about. Then, I was watching a YouTube video with a quote attributed to Jim Carrey displayed on the screen the entire time. I went and found the full quote:
Your need for acceptance can make you invisible in this world. Don’t let anything stand in the way of the light that shines through this form. Risk being seen in all of your glory.
I decided I needed to write about that. If you found this, you understand. Because you likely had to work hard to find this.
I ended up procrastinating hard, both watching some football and doing some laundry, before getting started. The plan was to allot 1 hour for each essay. I ended up writing the first essay over 50 minutes, the second over 1 hour, 45 minutes.
First essay was 2359 words. Second essay weighs in at 4143 words. Grand total for the day: 6502. That brings me to 34766 words total. Average words per day: 2172.
For the record, I did play some Destiny right around 5:30 after I was done working the 9-5. I received an exotic machine gun from an engram I picked up. And I have like 70 strange coins, going into Xur’s weekly visit to either the Reef or the Tower. Sweet.
What helped today:
Allowing myself to remember some things that came up, that I needed to talk about. And talking about those things honestly, without regards to the feelings that came up, trying to push me to stop and not go to those places. It was a pretty raw writing night.
What I discovered today:
That above most other things, I needed the message of the above quote.
What else was good:
How quiet it was as I wrote. I didn’t turn on any music until the very end.